Thursday, June 15, 2006

a dream is a wish your heart makes...

when i was in 5th grade, i sang a duet of the songA DREAM IS A WISH YOUR HEART MAKES with some girl whom i don't remember. until a few moments ago, i wouldn;t have been able to even tell you what Disney movie that song came from... but i googled the lyrics....



from Cinderella:

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

i have faith in dreams... no matter how much my heart grieves. i have faith that God is with me - granting me the desires of my heart - so long as i follow & seek Him. i have faith that if he doesn't grant the desire of my heart then he will change said desire.

it's not a dichotomy. it's a reality that i've seen played out in my own life. 7 years ago a dream began to creep into my humbled heart. my vision shifted and God placed me here - at this very spot - at this very moment - for a reason. this is not some random happenstance. God is bigger than happenstance.

and so here i am, a man, now 32 years of age, discovering what it means to trust in Jesus... learning all over again what it means to Follow Christ. man, am i dry right now... i am parched... my thirst can only be quenched by Jesus... i am coming to the waters - but it is hard not to drink out of my own canteen. i see a beautiful steam, a babbling brook, flowing with eternal waters. i need a drink. i need to be reminded to drink.

as i approach the waters edge, dreams long forgotten have crept back into my very soul. At the heart of it all, the heart of me, lies a yearning for the creative. that desire to create is stronger than it's been in years.

Am i daring enough to drink my fill from the water sprnging forth from the everlasting? do i dare venture into the unknown, hand in hand with Christ?

desire is more than a song by U2. dreams are bigger than any Cinderella song.

God provides. God asks of me: do you trust me? truly? trust me... walk with me... see what i have laid out before you... come on in, the water is fine.

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i am realizing that i don't have to be the savior of a wretched situation. my goals, my dreams, my visions of yore do not have to superceed my current divine placement. maybe my goals and dreams are more connected than i've realized...






expression is a beautiful thing...
{lest we forget}




Friday, June 09, 2006