Thursday, March 20, 2008

bread


freshly baked bread.
grab hold of the smell.
let it fill your senses.

hungry yet?
probably so.

been hungry for a long time.
nothing really gratifies.

5000+ were once fed with the five and two.
bread was multiplied.
lifted up with thanksgiving.

and all who ate were satisfied.
sheep without a shepherd. now satisfied.
compassion given - satisfaction received.

stomachs full. satisfied.
physically satisfied.

SATISFIED.

SATISFIED!

you get that?

satisfied at the hands of the One who satisfies more than physical needs but spiritual needs.
the Bread of Life.

i've got all i need. i should be satisfied.
must be eating the wrong bread.
filling my stomach with the wrong food.

i crave the Bread of Life.
want/need to digest it continually.

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness*

Can you smell the bread?
take... and eat... do this in remembrance of me...



*Snow Patrol - Make This Go On Forever

Monday, March 17, 2008

Greatest Hits

i've been a fan of the tv show Lost since it premiered on September 22, 2004. i never miss an episode and i've watched every episode again on DVD. this January I re-watched all of Season 3 in preparation for the new season of Lost to begin. Episode 69 in the series was titled "Greatest Hits". Charlie was thinking that he was about to die so he spent some time thinking back about the highlights of his life. He then wrote them down and instructed that they be delivered to Claire.

That got me to thinking... what are my 'greatest hits?' i tried to avoid the cliche like my wedding day and the birth of my children. those days are obvious highlights - that goes without saying... i was trying to think of the kind of obscure things that have been etched in my mind... my greatest hits. i'll list mine below... (i'd encourage you to think of your 'greatest hits', too)

(in no particular order)

  • Seeing George Brett at a Spring Training baseball game as part of Spring Break Road Trip - 1996
  • CYF Camp 1992 - my faith becomes my own
  • Watching the sunset with Jen on a hill near the softball field at Asbury College, Wilmore, KY - Aug. 1998
  • Feeding Micah his first bottle 5 years ago
  • Preaching at CYF in 2006
  • Going to Crestline, Ohio with my Dad - to learn the family history and to see the famous Roundhouse that my grandfather used to work as an Engineer for New York Central.
  • Directing my first big concert video production Ichthus '95 & '96 (Audio Adrenaline and Petra respectively)
There are others - if I would take the time to think... but for now - these are my Greatest Hits. I suppose I could always come up with 'Volume 2' at a later date.

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Now playing: Angels And Airwaves - The Adventure
via FoxyTunes

Thursday, March 13, 2008

a couple of YouTube gems

i stumbled upon these youtube clips this week. one is old school... from when Sixpence None the Richer appeared on Letterman (probably circa '99, maybe '00?) I love it how Leigh Nash explains to Letterman about the name of the band.



the second clip (unable to be embedded into this blog) is from this year's Oscars - pay attention to the second half of the acceptance speech from Marketa Irglova (for Best Song - from the movie Once.)
watch ONCE acceptance speech YouTube video here

transcript
here

with no disrespect to the people of oklahoma

what if celebrities moved...

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

creative writing



i am currently reading this book and will be attempting some of the creative writing exercises it suggests. i am really excited for this new challenge.

i have this strange dream to write a screenplay. i've had this dream now for about 12+ years. maybe this book will give me the brainstorms i need to take on that challenge... or maybe not.

i look forward to being creative again.


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Now playing:
The Album Leaf - Another Day (Revised)
via FoxyTunes

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

like panes of glass

looking up at the moon. a sliver, slightly tilted to the right.
laying on the ground... my back is pushing the grass back towards the earth.
a fire burns... the crackle and flicker tells me so. i don't need to look at the flame to know it is there.
it's cold. but not 'i-can-see-my-breath' cold.
a rustling of leaves to my left.
the whistle of the gentle breeze across my face.

the surface of the sky is black with speckles.
stars sprinkle the sky like dust scattered in the hues of evening sun.
dust in light.
stars at night.
and shavings of the moon light up the horizon.
reflected like panes of glass.

silence expanded too far in every direction.
this modern love... a portrait of an image that can not be fully grasped.
i might as well be staring at a painting in an art museum.
i look and gaze and try to see it for all it's worth. i cannot look away.
i am drawn in - searching for it's inner beauty.
trying to figure out what it is that captivates me.
i don't have an answer.
i don't need an answer.
i just need to remember that it captivates me.
i just need to remember to look at it from time to time.
i just need to remember that it is beautiful.
i connect with the canvas like the paintbrush connects with imagination.
the flickering spark catches my eye. i sit up.
shake the leaves off of my back...
and warm myself by the fire.
i am about to be drawn in again for the very first time.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

SNOW!
























the snow fell down in mass. it didn't quit. i don't think i've ever seen anything like it! it all started friday morning around 10am... by late afternoon we had 6 or 7 inches... then we had a short break in the storm. but then... after midnight it snowed non stop until probably 7 pm Saturday. by the storms end we had 16 inches of snow in our front yard.


everything was canceled this weekend... including the Winter Jam retreat that was to have around 250 senior high youth attend. We've pushed it back to April 4- 6 (Spring Jam perhaps?)

we had a lot of fun playing in it yesterday and look forward to a nice time out in the snow this afternoon. enjoy the pictures!

snow!!!

























Thursday, March 06, 2008

seeing







this is a good picture we get a good sense of how these people live and though there is sadness in it and though it is hard to face, we must look at it because it is truth.


quote from Avijit from the documentary Born into Brothels












Kids with Cameras
pictures taken by the children of the Red light district of Calcutta, India - documented in the film Born into Brothels.



















stained glass by Avijit

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Please, Let's Try Again (again)

the second chance. it's beautiful isn't it?
think when your a kid... "just one more time... just one more time."

for his birthday, my son got a nerf basketball hoop that now hangs on the back of front door in the foyer. He couldn't wait to play it... and to play it with someone. it took him a while to get the hang of it, being that the rim and net are a good 7 feet off the ground... pretty high for a boy who's 3 and a half feet tall. he kept trying and trying... wanting to play more and more. it was time for dinner and he kept saying "just one more time... just one more time."

beautiful. the second chance. the do-over. if at first you don't succeed, try, try again.














i was thinking about the image from the Sistine Chapel created by Michelangelo, commonly known as The Creation of Adam. You can see God's hand stretched far - with his finger, reaching out to connect with Adam... and yet Adam lazily reaches back.
"I'm too tired... I've got things to do. I don't have time..."
And God continues to reach... again and again. "Just one more time... Just one more time."

He longs for us to unite with him.

when we're united - we're tied to Him.

switch around the letters though... move the 'i' in united and you get... untied.
united. untied.
when i move... the bond is broken... but God's hand is outstretched as if to say "Please, let's try again."

My son's joy wasn't complete until he made that final basket before dinner. 'one more time' brought great gladness to his face, heart, mind and soul. Satisfaction.

The Father says to us "one more time" because he knows what will bring about joy and satisfaction. it's a relationship with the One who loves us so much, searches for us lost sheep and celebrates our homecoming.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Paris Je T'aime

well i have to thank my sister for giving me a gift subscription to Netflix for christmas. our third Netflix film (after Away From Her * and Somersault **) arrived yesterday and we watched it last night.

Paris Je T'Aime is a creative idea for a movie in and of itself. it features 18 5 minutes vignettes directed by 18 acclaimed directors and featuring an ensemble cast of well known domestic and foreign actors. Each vignette takes place in a different part of Paris and in small ways, each short is connected to the others.

Paris Je T'Aime (Paris, I Love You) is basically a movie about love... our longing for love, the chasing after, childhood innocence, passion for deep connections with others, dealing with love and loss, circumstantial love, the love of pain (and vice versa), love through sacrifice, and just plain joy brought about by a genuine love of love. This movie is resonating with me so much. I think in the end I realized how connected everything is. After all it's the hope of love that is ingrained in our very being (a gift from God, accepted and rejected) and that hope connects us all. We all want it, search for it endlessly and always mange to muff it up in the process - but it is that pursuit that keeps us alive. when we lose that desire to pursue love - life, i believe, is lost.

Patis Je T'Aime (website, trailer) is a wonderfly beautiful film... pleasing to the eyes, ears, heart and mind. It also features a nice soundtrack and a wonderful closing song by Feist (in which i found an mp3 download here). As the trailer says, fall in love again 18 times...

There was truly only one of the 18 that i didn't really like (Porte de Choisy: about a hair product sailsman trying to sell to a beauty salon in Chinatown)- and even that one was visually stimulating, i just didn't get it. It's hard for me to pick a favorite segment... but Tuileries directed by the Coen brothers and starring Steve Buscemi was a highlight... as was Bastille and Parc Monceau filmed entirely in one continuous shot.

See this movie. See the different faces of love. let your heart be filled with joy... again and again.



(further reading: review... wiki... but honestly - just see it first - then read more about it.)

*Away from Her (3 out of 5 stars... great beginning... then... meh)
** Somersault (4.5 out of 5 stars... this Aussie film has gotten better in my mind as i've thought more about it and discovered truths found within)


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Now playing: Feist - La même histoire
via FoxyTunes

Monday, February 25, 2008

Secrets of the Divine Imagination (or to well up with passionate resonation of sound and soul)

below is the song order of the new playlist i created this weekend... inspired after taking a moment... the title of the playlist is the title of this post.
it's mostly instrumental music... very passionate & emotional songs... i am finding it to be a nice addition to much needed meditation...

if you would like more info on where some of these songs are from - drop me a comment.

Creek Lullaby … Margaret
Everything About You Is New … Massive Attack
The Tracker … Peter Gabriel
Genea … Elliott
Refur … Sigur Ros
Naked Snow … Decoder Ring
Please, Let's Try Again … Linford Detweiler
Failing Eyes … Jeff Johnson
Opus 36 … Dustin O'Halloran
Tuolumne … Eddie Vedder
Iguazu … Gustavo Santaolalla
Rough Sex … Decoder Ring
Coloring Shoes … Explosions In The Sky
Residential Love Song … K.C. Accidental
Bleed In Breathe Out … Elliott
Mark Jamming … Explosions In The Sky
Treefingers … Radiohead
Matador … Daniel Lanois
Scattered Black and Whites … Elbow
I Am So Much More Me That You Are Perfectly You … Eluvium
Glacial … Hammock
Garrison … Film School
Loosing Games … Explosions In The Sky
Half Time … Mogwai
You May Emerge From This More Dead Than Alive … Hammock
Gong … Sigur Rós
Closing Titles from Jewboy … Decoder Ring
Goodbye … Kevin Shields
I Should Have Kept Going … Linford Detweiler
Polybackwards … Gus Gus

Please, Let' Try Again

Lou Gehrig, Al Simmons & Babe Ruth...
Johnny Cash in concert at the Minneapolis Auditorium...
John, Paul, Ringo & George
The Shawshank Redemption: Fear Can Hold You Prisoner, Hope Can Set You Free
The Creation of Adam & the Big Picture
The Joshua Tree
Never, Never, Never Give Up - Winston Churchill
Pictures of my wife and kids
a quote by Rich Mullins
In Bloom
Notes and cards and letters

the view from my office chair.
music plays.
iPod on shuffle.
Please Let's Try Again by Linford Detweiler (of Over the Rhine).


i take a moment... sitting... pondering... reflecting... meditating...



sometimes we need to take moments...

Friday, February 22, 2008

Remixed Rainbows








amplive rainydayz remixes of radiohead: in rainbows - free!

an 8-track collection featuring remixes of Radiohead's historic seventh album, In Rainbows. The songs are available in a zip file



steve... troy... you might be interested in this...

current obsessions






























Thursday, February 21, 2008

on the way to Revolution

4 degrees. that's what the digital thermometer read in the car this morning.
the grass was crisp. the sun, peering through the chilled, barren trees shone beams of cold across the land.
the frozen moon was in its last fading moments before disappearance.
hats and mittens and moisture emitted from the mouths of youth mixes with the cold forming temporary clouds of white, frost-like vapor.
minds racing with ideas and desires. conversations about this and that and all that comes in-between.
running inside, out of the chill and into the florescent warmth.
the cold is forgotten - at least for the moment. but there is still a cold inside. and so many have gotten used to covering themselves. they are young - but not too young to want the warmth of the sun... even if they don't realize that they truly need the warmth of the Son.

On the way to Revolution*. a gathering for those who desire God's warmth... or at least a desire for something more.





*thoughts collected while attending the weekly Bible study that meets Thursday mornings at in the middle school gym...



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Now playing: The Afters - Summer Again
via FoxyTunes

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

exiles in the city



















i attended a men's Bible study last nite - a friend of mine - his dad, a pastor, was leading it.
the scripture reference was Jeremiah 29. of course vs. 11 is commonly known by many... it is probably frequently underlined and highlighted...

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

we looked at more than that commonly quoted verse... we looked at the context... my dad used to say 'a text taken out of context is a preftext.' (or something like that...) so with that - i discovered so much more than that oft recited verse.

if you look at Jeremiah 29:4-14 you will see the bigger picture.

God's people - they had been exiled from Jerusalem to Babylon... on foreign soil... amongst foreign people. what does God ask them to do?
Build houses.
Plant gardens.
Marry.
Have sons & daughters.
Increase in number.

that stuff there - that is the easy stuff. but then in verse 7 - God commands something more...
Seek peace.
Seek prosperity for the city.
Pray for the city to prosper - for if it prospers, you too will prosper.

keep in mind that the people of God had been defeated by Babylon... so they were captives. and yet God asks that they pray for their captors... and pray for them to prosper.

one might conclude they were instructed to 'infiltrate' the enemy and win 'em over to Jesus!' I don't see it quite that way... there is no infiltrating... just living... among people. side by side. not us vs. them. just us.

how does this relate to my city or your city... or our state or nation or even the world?

i think God is saying to all Christians - GET OUT OF THE BUBBLE. we're so good at holing ourselves up in our own subculture 'protected' from the evils of the world. but the bubble doesn't protect us - it prevents us.

Rich Mullins - the late singer/songwriter and ragamuffin theologian once said this:
"Christianity is not about building an absolutely secure little niche in the world where you can live with your perfect little wife and your perfect little children and your beautiful little house where you have no gays or minority groups near you. Christianity is about learning to love as Jesus loved and Jesus loved the poor... and Jesus loved the broken." [July 19, 1997]

how is it that the church seclude itself from the rest of society? we are called... better yet - instructed to be a part of the culture. when the culture prospers - our mission prospers. that makes sense if you think about it.

so the challenge then - that was laid before us last nite was to pray for our cities... our communities. to be out in the community... living.

so back to the key verse that we all know and love.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

how 'bout that. we have a hope and a future... but our 'prosperity' comes when we pray for the city. and our prosperity isn't driving Lexus' and having memberships at the country club... i'm not talking 'bout the prosperity gospel here. that's bogus... he will make us strong and we will flourish - because we will be fulfilling his will.

vs. 12 and beyond serve as a nice closer:
"When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. "When you come looking for me, you'll find me. "Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed." [from the Message]

we call on Him. He listens. we look. we find. and we won't be disappointed!
nice.

i have to be honest - this whole passage - about being out there amongst the non-believers and the poor and those who oppress... that kind of living has been giving me a kick in the butt lately. i am striving to be more missional in the way that i live and in the way that i lead the youth group. i pray that we would not be so self-centered... even if out of ignorance.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

writers strike

so were almost 3 months in to this Writers Strike... most of the TV shows we love to watch are nearing the end of new programs... some shows have been shelved until further notice (i.e. 24). others, like Lost are set to premiere soon (but it may be a limited run of new shows - as of right now - only 8 of the originally planned 16 episodes of Lost are 'in the can' or complete).

the strike might just mess up TV viewing for a long time. maybe more people will just turn their TV's off. heck - i actually read my first novel that wasn't required reading. maybe more people will do that as well.

the latest news seems to say that this strike could affect TV shows next season as well.

greedy Hollywood TV execs seem to think that the viewing public will watch anything they put on the air... here's hoping that doesn't ring true. although i did notice myself watching Celebrity Apprentice last week... shame on me.

so here's a challenge for us all; turn off network tv... don't watch it... read a book. watch a dvd... spend time with your family... go to WalMart and buy prepaid phone cards... whatever.

cuz this strike seems like it'll be around for a long while.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Power Outage

with 50 mile per hour winds comes the occasional falling tree.
with the occasional falling tree comes a downed power line.

that was the case last evening, two doors down.
the tree fell and was laying on the wires. it then began to catch fire.
about ten minutes and two loud 'pop's and a flashing white light the fire extinguished itself - but electricity for the three blocks of which our house is centrally located was out.

most people probably slept through it all or at least - returned to sleep in the usual dark.
not me. i couldn't sleep. maybe it was the howling wind. maybe it was my four year old sons constant elbows and knees poking me after he had crawled in bed with us. or maybe it was the flashing, whirling lights atop the fire truck parked outside our house.
regardless, i got little rest.

so in the dark, with the flicker of a candle providing some comfort and light i spent a lot of time praying. what else was there to do? what better time than that which was present.

i began to compare my oft spiritual power outages to the situation outside the creaking walls of our house. i began to think about the teens whom i shepherd and how many of them are wandering around in the dark - with little or no desire for spiritual electricity or fire. and those other teens who have been stirring up that fire - with hopes that it would spread to their peers.

i thought about how much we rely on power... on electricity... on light. and yet for so many - when it comes to their faith - they don't seem to think it necessary to 'flip the switch on'. to them, simply having the switch is enough. but what good is that?

so many are resisting the light - like cockroaches scurrying about in the night... when the light comes on - they seek darkness as their shelter. and yet we know that the darkness is deceiving many.

oh how i want the power to come on. for the light bulb light up. for Christ to shine so that more people would be drawn to Him. and now my struggle ahead of me appears to be finding a new, relevant way to present the light to those God has given me to lead. but i also know i don't have to reinvent the wheel. i have to trust the Spirit. this journey that we are on - it is ever changing. the people we encounter along the path... they... they seem to resist - because society dictates what our priorities should be. or maybe because mainline christianity has become a breeder for complacency and comfort. or maybe because of a number of 'something elses'. at this point - i don't know anything anymore. i feel like Solomon... 'Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.'

i wait patiently for God to guide me to do what he wants me to do in order to reach those wayward sheep in darkness. maybe that is the answer... rescue the lost - one by one.

Monday, December 31, 2007

Best of 2007

my Top 15 Albums of 2007

15. The Shins - Wincing the Night Away
14. Fauxliage - s/t
13. David Crowder*Band - Remedy
12. Eluvium - Copia
11. The Innocence Mission - We Walked in Song
10. Jon Foreman - Fall ep
9. Peter Bjorn & John - Writer's Block
8. Sigur Ros - Heim/Hvarf
7. Travis - The Boy with No Name
6. Great Northern - Trading Twilight for Daylight
5. Deas Vail - All the Houses Look the Same
4. Eddie Vedder - Into the Wild soundtrack
3. Unkle - War Stories
2. Explosions in the Sky - All of the Sudden I Miss Everyone
1. Radiohead - In Rainbows

Last FM most played from 2007
artist:
U2 - 365
Radiohead - 345
Explosions in the Sky - 297

song:
David Crowder*Band - Oh the Glory of it All

My Top Albums 2004 2005 2006


Top Movie
Into the Wild

TV
Lost
Friday Night Lights
Dirty Sexy Money
Nimrod Nation

Music Film
Heima (a film by Sigur Ros)

Game
Lego Star Wars: the Complete Saga (Nintendo Wii)





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Now playing: Sigur Rós - Heysátan
via FoxyTunes

Monday, December 24, 2007

176 days until...

summer.











all i want for Christmas is... a sinus infection.

sweet!

Friday, December 21, 2007

5 Minute Walk

back in my college days - it wasn't uncommon for me to go to various alternative Christian concerts... some of the concerts featured bands from a small label called 5 Minute Walk Recordings. At one show I got a free t-shirt that Said 5 Minute Walk on the front and Take Time to Listen on the back. it was a favorite tee until i lost it.

Ironically, the name of this blog is borrowed from the album title of a 5 Minute Walk sub-label band, Dimestore Prophets.



Something I was reading from Wise Traveller: Relationships triggered memories of 5 Minute Walk this morning...

I turned to Wikipedia to find out more info on 5 Minute Walk. Frank Tate - founder of the label, explained the name this way:

If you spend five minutes a day talking to Jesus like you would a friend, He would become your friend. I know it sounds weird, but I challenge you to give it a try. The next time you're bummed, lonely, scared or frustrated, go for a five-minute walk and talk to Him like you would a friend. Tell Him exactly how you feel and what you're thinking.

How many of us need to take that walk today?

A 5 minute walk can lead to so much more.
It can lead to cooler heads prevailing.
It can bring peace of mind.
It can serve as exercise for the body, mind and soul.
It can bring about conversation with the Father.
It can produce fruit from a deepened relationship with Jesus.

the 5 Minute Walk. sounds like a good resolution for the coming new year.

Friday, December 14, 2007

the gift that keeps on giving

Acute viral nasopharyngitis. it's name strikes fear into the hearts of man. i've heard it's a more powerful torture technique than waterboarding. 'twas the real reason Hitler took that cyanide pill. it's why Osama hates America.

they call it the common cold. and it has tormented my family for almost 4 weeks now.

since Thanksgiving eve - someone has been sick in our family. it started with me - nothing more than a cold, followed by severe cough... then it went to micah, then jen and then Addie... well now 24 days later it is back to me... again.

great. what joy. ironically, my two colds have coincided with raking leaves. hmm. colds and leaves? is this a punishment left over from Sodom and Gomorrah?

i was wondering this morning, as i was trying to extract that stuff that fills one's head, chest and throat when one has a cold "I wonder who was the first person to get a cold? What did they think? (and were they raking leaves when the symptoms came upon them?)"

i've determined that it must have been Able. He was probably out working in the fields with his brother Cain - both getting their offering ready for the Lord. Adam & Eve - mom & dad were back at camp preparing the evening meal of twice fried barley grains and a side of passion fruit (of course). As Cain and Able finished up their work, suddenly something so violent came upon Able... it came from the bellows of his abdomen. I know what your thinking... Able wasn't violent - but I'm betting that his first ever sneeze was.

After receiving the brunt of the sneeze and without a pause, Cain turned to Able and said 'God bless you.' and the rest was history. Able's symptoms were not noticed by anyone else, i'm guessing. After Able wiped away the yellow mucus - he presented his offering to the Lord... and well, so did Cain...

and so Cain was banished... and as he left - he took on those first germs and from hence forth -
Acute viral nasopharyngitis spread across the land.

Rumor has it that Moses had a cold when he first went to speak to Pharaoh - thus Aaron had to speak for him... i think that's right.

Well anyway I am battling this ugly thing. It has overtaken my body like that alien that came out of Sigourney Weaver's stomach in the movie Alien.

let's hope i get rid of it a little less violently.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Everybody Makes Mistakes

now revel in the mistakes of others... it'll make you feel better.

read this: Media Related Errors - 2007 edition

my favorite - from The Sentinel-Review (Woodstock, Ontario):

In an article in Monday’s newspaper, there may have been a misperception about why a Woodstock man is going to Afghanistan on a voluntary mission. Kevin DeClark is going to Afghanistan to gain life experience to become a police officer when he returns, not to shoot guns and blow things up.
The Sentinel-Review apologizes for any embarrassment this may have caused.


may have been? yeah.

This one is funny, too...

from The Intelligencer Journal:

A photograph accompanying a story about Teen Challenge in Saturday’s Intelligencer Journal incorrectly identified the subject, who is the Rev. James Santiago.
The story included an incorrect identification of Santiago’s wife, Pam. Also, Santiago was addicted to crack cocaine for 12 years.

hmm... nice correction... and the much needed additional information?


on that note: enjoy Everybody Makes Mistakes by Starflyer 59...
one of their finest albums.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

make like a tree and get out of here

as is traditional here in ohio, the weather can mess with every aspect of one's life. and thus, the old men in the locker room at the Y talk of nothing but it (along with the occasional reference to 'The War').

Fall and Winter were meshed together, here, like a shredded wheat biscuit. Freezing cold mixed with sunny days with rain and rain and then last week's blast of snow. Summer seemed to extend well into fall which was nice - but that left leaves on the trees a whole lot longer than usual.

Thus after an extended period (as in maybe 7-10 days) of rain and wind in late November the leaves were all down on the ground. There was one sunny day after the rain... it was cold - but not bitter - and I knew that that day was my only shot at raking up the leaves in the back yard. i should mention that my rake is old school. i don't even know where i got it. i mean, who really wants to spend his hard earned money on a rake? While raking, i realized we didn't have any outdoor trash bags - so I raked all of the leaves into a giant pile against the fence - figuring that i could bag them up the next day. The next day it snowed... followed by what they call a 'wintery mix.' Then, last Thursday we had a huge bit of snow (o.k. - maybe not huge - but 4 or 5 inches... some schools were even called off).

So - i was not able to ever bag up the giant leaf pile in the backyard. Well the last two days have been warm enough to melt away the snow... the sun came out and i figured i might as well bag these leaves up.

there is nothing worse than bagging up wet leaves. Even though i was wearing thick, winter gloves, my hands were stained with a dark orange color - somehow the colors of the leaves seeped through the gloves. it took 8 bags to get rid of that pile. now, my back is really sore and my clothes and jacket are stained as well.

after bagging, i had to haul them in our van to the recycling center. it took two trips.

i don't like leaves. at all.

this caused me to wonder - who came up with the idea that leaves needed raked anyway? did the pilgrims get off the Mayflower and create some sort of makeshift rake out of sticks and branches - in order to rake up the leaves around their huts?

i'm guessing mankind survived thousands of years without rakes... and could have cared less if leaves were raked up. maybe this wasn't God's intent. i have to believe it wasn't... because i think this is my last year to rake 'em up.

i am boycotting leaf raking, i think.

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Now playing: DJ Shadow - Changeling / Transmission 1
via FoxyTunes

Sunday, December 09, 2007

sensless

why.

i doesn't make sense to me.

i don't understand random violence.
shooting
after shooting
after shooting.

why?






this is just one of many things i don't understand right now.

Friday, December 07, 2007

first snow







a thin separation between cold and warmth.





















a pure, white blanket of silence; a gentle reminder to what peace feels like.


















sensation forms as quickly as the icicle.






















how will we proclaim the peace and purity that seeks to cover us all?






























a beacon of hope for all to see. that is what this should be.


























taking in the moment... so as to not soon forget.

















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Now playing: Hallgrimskirkja Motet Choir - Gloria
via FoxyTunes

Thursday, December 06, 2007

We Are None of Us Alone

a few weeks back i was watching an episode of the new NBC series Life. at the end - there was this powerful montage in which the following was narrated. [WATCH THIS CLIP FROM Life ON YouTube]


[best if read while listening to the opening 32 seconds of
All I Need by
Radiohead] [YouTube video of All I Need]


We are none of us alone
even as we exhale it is inhaled by others
the light that shines upon me shines upon my neighbor as well
in this way everything is connected
everything is connected to everything else
In this way I am connected to my friend even as I am connected to my enemy
In this way there is no difference between me and my friend
In this way there is no difference between me and my enemy
We are none of us alone


i'm pretty sure it's a Zen-like quote... forgive me for that... but it is/was cool. i've found more discussion on it HERE. and google searches for said quote spiked immediately after it's original Nov. 14th air date.









Radiohead
ALL I NEED LYRICS:
I’m the next act
Waiting in the wings
I’m an animal
Trapped in your hot car
I am all the days that you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You’re all I need
I’m in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth
Who justs wants to share your light
I’m just an insect
Trying to get out of the dark
I wanna stick with you, because there are no others

You are all I need
You’re all I need
I’m in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It’s all wrong
It’s all right
It’s all wrong
It’s all right
It’s all wrong
It’s all right
It’s all wrong
It’s all right
It’s all wrong
It’s all right

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Log Off

Jonny Baker blogged about this new program called Animoto... you can make your very own 30 second video with pictures and music. it does these funky transitions. it's fun... addicting... and free... you can make longer videos - but i think you may have to pay for them.

Below is one i threw together from some jpegs i found over at Howies.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

seize.life



























Seize life! Eat bread with gusto,
Drink wine with a robust heart.
Oh yes—God takes pleasure in your pleasure!
Dress festively every morning.
Don't skimp on colors and scarves.
Relish life with the spouse you love
Each and every day of your precarious life.
Each day is God's gift. It's all you get in exchange
For the hard work of staying alive.
Make the most of each one!
Whatever turns up, grab it and do it. And heartily!
This is your last and only chance at it,
For there's neither work to do nor thoughts to think
In the company of the dead, where you're most certainly headed.

(THE MESSAGE)

Monday, November 26, 2007

abide.

ABIDE
being fully present with
resting in the comfort of
dwelling together with
journeying beside Jesus.

brings --->

direction in life
desire to serve
discovery of our true selves

we must pursue a life of trust
(to follow an invisible God)

live as a {wandering disciple} as if God is beside, in front of, behind, over and under us.





inspired from the Journal of Student Ministries - July/Aug 2007 - pg. 8


Now playing:
Cranes - K56
via FoxyTunes

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

a playlist / a worship experience (how will you find God in the music?)












































You may or may not know that I am a Youth Pastor in Ohio. Every year - we take our group to some cottages on Atwood Lake for a Fall Retreat. This year's theme was H2o.
our goals being:
Hang Time with God -
develop Habits that'll change our Lives
discover Ordinary ways to connect with God.

I burned a playlist onto a CD and gave it to the youth a week or so in advance so that they could import it onto their Mp3 players. Then on Saturday morning - the youth were given 65 minutes (the length of the CD) to listen to the songs and work through a sort-of workbook that went along with the music. Each song had a page with pictures, scriptures, questions, comments and lyrics. They were encouraged to 'seek God' and to 'find Him' in the music.

Needless to say - this was the highlight of the weekend for most of the teens. It allowed them a time to creatively express their emotions and to connect the dots to see where God is in those moments that make up their complex, yet purposeful lives.

I truly believe that God uses unexpected things in order to speak to people. He spoke to Moses through a burning bush... to Balaam through a donkey...to Elijah through a gentle whisper. To many of today's youth - He speaks to them through the music... or through film... or through art. God is alive and kicking, moving and breathing life into the things that surround us.

Below are 14 posts that correlate with the 14 tracks of the H2O cd. Each image was created in Photoshop by me (sized 8x10 @ 180dpi). The pictures used were found in a variety of places... some were pictures that my wife or I took, others were found via friends on my blog roll... others were found randomly. I've tried to cite what I could and have provided links to assist in further study.

Enjoy them. Let me know how you find God... or how he finds you... in the music... in the images and in the lyrics.

God bless.

Track 1: Angels & Airwaves - Valkyrie Missile


















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Now playing: Angels & Airwaves - Valkyrie Missile
via FoxyTunes

Track 2: Sixpence None the Richer - Field of Flowers















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Now playing:
Sixpence None the Richer - Field of Flowers
via FoxyTunes

Track 3: Deas Vail - A Lover's Charm























further information found at YouAreBeautiful.


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Now playing: Deas Vail - A Lover's Charm
via FoxyTunes

Track 4: Stars of Track and Field - Say Hello





















partial idea from Embody - Moodify.



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Now playing: Stars of Track and Field - Say Hello
via FoxyTunes

Track 5: Muse - Butterflies & Hurricanes
























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Now playing: Muse - Butterflies & Hurricanes
via FoxyTunes

Track 6: UNKLE (feat. Ian Astbury) - Burn My Shadow

















(for added effect: Burn My Shadow video download QuickTime video or YouTube video
(thanks to Jonny Baker for the idea)




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Now playing: UnKLE featuring Ian Astbury - Burn My Shadow
via FoxyTunes

Track 7: Sixpence None the Richer - Bleeding





















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Now playing: Sixpence None the Richer - Bleeding
via FoxyTunes

Track 8: I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness - Today
















Taken from Moodify - by Embody.
More 'Happiness' practices found at Embody




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Now playing: I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness - Today
via FoxyTunes

Track 9: Future of Forestry - Sanctitatis




















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Now playing: Future of Forestery - Sanctitatis
via FoxyTunes

Track 10: Nada Surf - Always Love




















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Now playing: Nada Surf - Always Love
via FoxyTunes

Track 11: David Crowder*Band - Never Let Go




















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Now playing: David Crowder Band - Never Let Go
via FoxyTunes

Track 12: Coldplay - A Message


















check out Wise Traveller for more information.

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Now playing: Coldplay - A Message
via FoxyTunes

Track 13: Embrace - Out of Nothing




















Maid picture by Jonny Baker (blog) (flickr)



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Now playing: Embrace - Out of Nothing
via FoxyTunes

Track 14: Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Salvation
























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Now playing: Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Salvation
via FoxyTunes

Friday, November 02, 2007